✿ May ! o(≧∀≦)o ❀

Summer is almost here!

I'm so close to finishing school. Graduation is also around the corner!

I finally finished my final cosmetology course a few days ago, and I have a few classes left! I no longer feel nervous about graduating or becoming 18 anymore honestly. I'm so excited to finally have legal autonomy over myself, no more school, and more freedom overall. 

After I graduate, I'm planning to get in touch with one of my old friends again. It's been a long time since we last talked or hung out, mainly because she has a full time job and has more adult responsibilities. I wonder what she'll think about me now. I've changed a lot since the last time we hung out (4 years ago...). I reached out to her yesterday and now I'm just waiting to see what she'll say. I'm pretty anxious...

 

Other than that, my 18th birthday is coming up, on the 27th of June! 14 year old me would be having a panic attack right now. Honestly, the fear around turning 18 is a bit overdramatic. I do understand it though. I was scared to become 17 as a 15 year old, but really, other than getting an id, driver's license, a job, and a few other important adulting responsibilities (and moving out if you plan on doing so), nothing really changes. I feel like life will become more serious when you hit 20. 

I'm also getting paid this week, and I've, interestingly, been really into Japanese ska pop punk lately, mostly just Muramasa though lol. I wish they stayed together longer... Their music is pretty addictive and memorable ^_^ Oh and I pimped out my keitai with a bunch of keychains!

I want to put some stickers on it soon!

Any who, I'll blog if anything else interesting happens in my life (─ ‿ ─)

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~ Suparabbit is listening to: Horoscope - Muramasa☆

I have NOT been sticking to blogging once a week lmao. Life seems to always get busy for me, one way or another... So double entries today (^ヮ^)

Today, I had to handle some job stuff. I went to an orientation for it and it was nerve-wracking. I was anxious the whole time and super shaky, but I got it done, and learned some important/valuable information. This was also an opportunity for me to start practicing signing my signature on important documents. Though, mine was sloppy compared to everyone else (adults) in the orientation... I'll get there soon. I think I was the only teenager there, actually. Most of the people there were middle aged or like mid 30s... I was so intimidated at first. The whole thing itself ended up being not as complicated as I thought it would be. Growing up is so scary... I switched off my mature/professional demeanor as soon as I got out of there haha.

Other than job stuff, I got tickets for the Michael biopic in April!!! I am very excited!!! This movie will probably be the closest thing I will ever get to feeling Michael's presence and magic. I was born a year before he died, so I never got the chance to experience Michael-mania, his peak, his concerts, even just living in the same era as him. I was too busy being non-existent... I've listened to his music all my life, but I became a full blown fan (Solider Of Love/"Moonwalker") when I was eight. Ever since then, I've been dedicated, so when the news of the biopic releasing came out in 2024, I've just been waiting. The film was actually announced in 2022, and I've been following the project since 2023, if I recall correctly. Delay after delay, after delay, it's actually happening. I honestly still haven't processed everything fully. The teasers, trailer, movie merchandise, Jaafar Jackson practically morphing into his uncle (its scary how much they're alike), hasn't hit me just yet lol.

I'm gonna semi-cosplay him from Thriller era. I'm gonna wear the outfit he wore at the beginning of the Beat It music video, the piano shirt and red jeans combo. Even though he wore this outfit briefly, Its such a cool outfit! Underrated look honestly. 

Such a cute outfit!! ♥︎

I'm also gonna make a Michael-themed bangya trunk soon! 

MJ stuff aside, school has been overwhelming, per usual... But, especially now since its spring break after today (Friday). Idk why but it seems like schools love bombarding their students with tons of work and big projects right before they go on break for some reason. I've gotten 99% of my work done. I still have one more assignment to do but I'm probably gonna wait until after spring break to finish it. This assignment in particular is super difficult and its taking me forever to finish (╥﹏╥) It's for my cosmetology class, specifically haircutting... I'm never becoming a hairstylist lol. 

That's about it generally :p life is getting better, and more fun :)

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~ Suparabbit is listening to : Streetwalker - Michael Jackson

Rambling

I haven't updated this blog in over a month... So much for blogging once a week XD. I do want to actually start blogging at least once a week. That was my original goal but sometimes life just gets busy. I've been occupied with tons of school work and responsibilities, so I haven't been able to blog :[ I'm trying to stay consistent with my goals and blogging is one of them! so I'll be blogging more often. I don't know when I'll fully finish my blog though... or any of my websites... Speaking of my blog, I wanna change the font soon. Someone mentioned to me that it can be hard to read and I agree. I just love the cutesy look of it, but I can't barely read this font myself lol.

Anyways, I finally got my laptop mimi a few weeks ago! I love her sm. I dual booted linux and windows 10 ltsc with the classic7 mod (1:1 appearance of windows 7) on her. I'm so happy with my laptop and I've been using it nonstop. She's just a tiny bit slow and I just need to replace her battery and possibly update her ram, but otherwise, she works extremely well for a laptop made in 2008! I need to get desktop pets, a cute cursor, a lil more decoration and a few games but for now, I have essentials such as winamp, internet explorer, some of my social medias, etc. I put nyappy kun on my desktop along with some classic windows 7 widgets. I can't express how much I love my little laptop. I get so much joy from it >w< 

Home screen and winamp ♥︎

I've mostly been trying to organize my music library and customizing ever since I got mimi. I have to actually decorate her soon too.

Apart from obsessing over my laptop, I got paid this week so that's cool. I'm struggling to decide what to spend the money on though...

I also recently finished one of my favorite series ever, De Volta Aos 15/Back to 15 on netflix. I shed some tears after the end of the final season lol. Words can't express how much I love the show. The characters, the plot, the writing, everything is just so amazing. Its also very relatable and hits close to home. Watching this series made me want to make more friends and live my life to the fullest. It's message is very important as well. Anita, the main character, played by Maisa Silva and Camila Queiroz, basically experienced what I try so hard to replicate, 2000s adolescence... The plot is that Anita time travels back to being 15- 18 years old, through her old fotolog/"floguinho."

Along with the characters and plot, the actors play the characters so well. I absolutely lovee Maisa now! I've been watching other media she's been in! She's such an amazing actress. Honestly wish this show had more seasons as well as a bigger fandom. I'm gonna buy the book the series was based on soon too. 

Anyways, other than laptop and show watching stuff, life's been as stagnant as always. School, responsibilities, chores, some free time or hobbies, then sleep. I would love to go out and do more things man... even just roaming around the neighborhood or the park. I can't do any of that right now because I have a strict helicopter mom lol. A good quarter of my teen years have been spent in my room. One of the only reasons im happy about turning 18 is because by then, I can at least have full autonomy over myself and I can finally go out on my own. I'm already imagining all the adventures I'm gonna have, all the places I'm gonna go, and the people I'll potentially meet. 

I've been especially tired and burnt out this week because of school and such... Even coffee didn't help me this week.

Some things I'm looking forward to in the next few months are going to Harajuku day in Little Tokyo in march, where I'll meet one of my coolest online friends, Ami, seeing the Michael biopic/movie in April (I'm super excited for that especially), and graduating in may! 

I'll be in a better mood on Friday I hope.

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~ Suparabbit is listening to: Because I'm Stupid - Kim Hyun Joon ♫